sad

nothing gonna happy for all the time right???

since there's a few day ee will come here, in lawas.... my sadness felt do thick.... it's mean, i'm gonna be alone here... my mum will going back to miri after accompanied me here for 3 weeks... it's gonna be a teribble sadness for me......

beside, hearding that my assit was able to transfer back to his hometown make me shock!! i'm not ready yet to let him go... coz i'm still new here and there's a lot to learn.....

i don't know what to write here.... there's a sadness in my heart but i don't know why.....

Dari Bilik pen.pegawai PD RPR lawas...

second day dah mula bertugas d sitok... alhmdulillah.. marek gik masih ada by neman.... macam lucu d ingat balit bila dak nangis bagei nak rak kak sidak berangkat selasa ya.. dahya tiba2 call madah sik pat lalu sungei limbang... sak baru jak ngadu ngn si schikong tok madah ati sedih... extend la agik sidak sehari.. so marek sidak seharian la sitok neman ku .. hehe nasib nemu assitant yg OK... hehe sik berasa lak ku.. by dah balit k flight marek..sik dapat sik nya mesti balit bintulu..... ada course penting... mak la tinggal... tapi kesian mak.. sik da ngn nya di blit.. hope ada lah nenek umah sewa ya dengan nya lepak2 time ku kerja tok...

so far kerja pun sikda pa nak buat.. dah nama rah kawasnperumahan, nang susah la mok nengok muka orang.. p yang best... cina juak yang rajin ke library.. ne tuju muka melayu eh.... huhuhu

sik ku tau gik apa jadi ngn kerja tok lak... mok di teruskan or just sementara?? ntahlah.. hanya tuhan yang tau...

Sedih... sakit... rindu.... penyesalan....

dah sejam dak mak ngn By berangkat...maybe dah masuk temburong.... tangisan airmata dah sik dapat nak di tahan... Ya Allah mudah-mudahan apa yang telah ku pilih tok betul dan punya hikmah tersendiri... sesungguhnya ada juga penyesalan menolak menjadi pegawai tadbir D IPG Miri.... tp mungkin apa yg terjadi ada lah hikmah disebaliknya...insyaALLAH... Hanya tuhan yang mengetahui segalnya.......

dalam hati bagai nak meletop jak ...sebak tak terkata lah lagi.... kawan2 seperjuangan semua dah ada life dan destinasi yang hendak di tuju dan capai..... start lah alam baru.... dahya cari kawan baru gik... tapi kawan sik perlu carik a?? sedih sikda kenalan...tp alhamdulillah tuhan tunjukkan jalan... jumpa family angkat..satu anugerah yang sik terduga.......

Another day...

Alhamdulillah..passport setle.. nasib leh claim ehehe... jimat bajet... mun g k belon tek alu dapat tiket belon jak.. tok dapat 2 in 1.... sik tau la apa perasan aku sebenarnya... hope within tis 2 years ada something yang menarik gik berlaku... than i can be a FULL Housewife as i Dream ... hehe thanks a lot Allah.....
second day dah kat pustka miri tok... nothing to do... buat preparation k d mbak ke lawas jak... hope dapat menyumbang lah sesuatu kepada komuniti d sia lak....

pasal wedding... so far so good,,, just baju sanding jak lom anta tailor... baju nikah might be cari d kk LAK... haha..awal da bercakap pasal nak g KK.. mentang2 dekat....

Get started...

second day in Pustaka miri.. there's nothing to do than facing this square monitor.... next week i'm going to start my duty as a government servant in Lawas...luckily me... the libray was 1 km from the centre of lawas!!! hehe not a library desa purely......

rasa nya ku kena ready serba serbi lah.... staff only 1... so i have to make a good connection with my staff n housemate...la... cakap pasal housemate..sik jumpa lagi la..huhu